I had had that rush of being competitive ever since I was a kid so when it was gone I made a few wrong choices and got addicted to alcohol and cocaine. I grew up very quickly because of the difficulties and responsibilities that I have always had. AP:Associated Press6Jesus celebrates scoring Brazil’s second goal against EcuadorGetty Images6. No matter what I hear or what they say to me, Arsenal will always be a fantastic, special club in my heart. Darou got me doing stuff Id never thought of, running in sand, playing football in sand, swimming, playing basketball. Jose Mourinho says it's his job to improve Manchester UnitedManchester United lose 3-1 at Watford - Jose Mourinho's third loss in a rowHe added: Absolutely not. And so far, you have to say, its going pretty well. Getty Images8The 7,000 capacity Sixfields stadium where Northampton lost on Saturday for the first t. Hopefully I can open his eyes and make him see that I deserve to play. achinesRelated StoriesAina on alertWho is Ola Aina All you need to know about the Chelsea defender named on the bench in EFL CupFab DealSevilla line up move for Chelsea playmaker Cesc Fabregas as he struggles to impress Antonio ConteKali Blue itChelsea target Kalidou Koulibaly ends transfer speculation by signing new deal with Italian club NapoliOSCAR WINNERFour years after his stunning debut goal against Juventus Oscar continues to frustrate Blues faithfulCourting AtletiChelsea goalkeeper Thibaut Courtois reveals his desire to return to Spain with Atletico Madrid Reuters5The former Atletico Madrid man admits he wants to return to Spain one dayGetty Images5Courtois' current deal deal expires in 2018Dont they know this is the age of the smart phone A fax sounds terribly old-fashioned — maybe the Madrid carrier pigeon is injured.