I had had that rush of being competitive ever since I was a kid so when it was gone I made a few wrong choices and got addicted to alcohol and cocaine. Related Storiesheart scare shockSunderland reveal heart test scare was behind Patrick van Aanholt wi. SUNDERLAND full-back Patrick van Aanholt has spoken out to deny reports?he has a heart complaint. Related Stories'HE THINKS HE'S KING'Yaya Toure agent slams Pep Guardiola AGAIN after . PA:Press Association6Van Aanholt was withdrawn 15 minutes before kick-offMoyes explained the late switch was down to concerns over the left-backs heart. Begiristain and Citys hierarchy knew Toures best days were behind him and planning was under way for life without him. Balance is, for me, not running around the pitch when we were winning a couple of matches and nobody sees now me being too depressed. nderland 1-0 with Harry Kane grabbing the winning goalEdwards has represented?England in the?Under-16, Under-17, Under-18 and Under-19?age groups. To their credit, the players vowed to change their approach during a meeting at Carrington on Monday. Yet Moyes feels Van Aanholt could have been spared all the embarrassment, had Sunderland been notified of a problem earlier.